Bulletin Board and a Fistfull of Jerky

The bulletin board at the library had fallen down and broken one weekend when they were moving some shelves around at the library. This was the story Del was getting from one of the library staff who had been there when it happened a couple of weeks ago, their stack of books momentarily paused in the check out process.

“So, we were putting that table by the window so it would get some light, and moving that shelf that had been over there,” Del’s friend pointed to one section of the library, and then the other end, “over there, but we wanted to move it outside to dust it off first, since it’s not really a big shelf. But on the way out the doors, we caught it on the edge of the bulletin board, and it came off the wall, and fell, and the corner cracked.” Roe’s brother was there, now rehanging the repaired bulletin board. “Is it the same one, or did you build a new one?” Del asked him. He poked at the middle part of the bulletin board, while Del’s volunteer friend retrieved a box of fliers to put up. “Well” he said, “The frame cracked, so they gave me some wood from a tree at the library that blew down in that windstorm we had, and I cut that up and made a new frame. Then I cut the cracked piece of the cork away and made a smaller bulletin board.” Del looked over at it, with a bright new frame, “What did you do with the old frame?” Roe’s brother pointed outside. “One piece was busted, so we put it in the compost in the community garden in the park. The rest I put in the scrap bin in my workshop. Same with the scrap piece of the cork board.” “Cool!” Said Del, and walked with their friend over to hang up some fliers. “Did you tell Mac yet?” “Nope, you came to the library first.”

Del hung Mac’s writer’s group fliers back up, and some for read alouds to the younger kids, and some of the book clubs that some people in the neighborhood went to. There was a stack of leftover fliers whose date had past, that Trina, the volunteer, started to put in the recycling. “Hey, can I have some of the recycling papers?” Del asked. Trina smiled. “Sure.” And handed over a stack. “Hey!” Del called at Roe’s brother, who had packed up his tools and was heading back outside, “can you show me what kind of tree this used to be?”. He stopped, and waved Del toward the park and trail outside. “Sure, I can show you while we walk, if you’re heading back.” Del waved to Trina and walked out with Roe’s brother, Al. His name might have been Sal, but everyone except his brother called him Al, and Roe called him Almonds, which he disliked the flavor of, and he had long ago started rolling his eyes at this, shrugging, and saying, “its a good wood to work with.”

He had a longer gait than the long legged Del, who hurried a little to keep up, and he walked down the trail near the library a little and stopped near a birch tree. “This isn’t the tree that blew down, but this is a cool one, there’s a cool birds nest in it.” Del looked at the top, which did have a massive birds nest. “What kind of birds are those?” “Dunno.” He walked on. “This is the kind of tree that blew down, but it stayed up ok in that windstorm. At first when I see these trees, sometimes I think they’re apple trees because of the leaves, but its actually an Alder.” Del examined the leaves. “Does it also have some kind of fruit?” Del asked. “Nope, just leaves.” Al replied. “The one that fell down I had to use some differnt tools to make it shaped like boards and not a log. That plane I got from the rummage sale, and one to scrape the bark off called a spoke shave. Then some saws and stuff. I know you know what those ones are.” “You put all the bark in the compost?” He nodded. “Yeah and the leaves and the parts I didn’t make into boards when the tree fell. Now it the rest will be mulch for the garden.”

They kept walking, pointing out birds and trees. “Check out that one.” Del said, pointing to a blue jay. “Whoa, that one has some bright feathers!” They rounded the corner in the path by the convenience store. “I’m gonna go get some more colored pencils.” Del said, and waved goodbye to Al, then turned back around. “Oh yeah, I almost forgot, what’s your name again?” Al laughed. “Almonds.” he joked, and they both laughed, and he waved and walked off towards his workshop. Del went inside the convenience store. Gina came to the front when the bell dinged, she had been in the back unpacking some boxes. “Hi Gina, I’m gonna grab some colored pencils.” Gina pointed to the far side of the store, “I just put some over there.” Del walked over and grabbed a bright package of twelve, then walked back to the counter for Gina to ring up. “Hey, what’s Roe’s brother’s name, is it Sal or is it Al?” Del asked. “I hope it’s Sal, because that’s what I always call him.” Gina and Del laughed. Just then the door dinged and Mac walked in with Cheese close behind. Cheese was wagging, wearing a green neckerchief, and Mac had a similar one stuffed in his back pocket. “Hey Gina! Are the new colored pencils in? And also can I please have a piece of jerky for Cheese and one for me?” He waved at Del. Del waved back and pointed to where the colored pencil were at. “There are some twelve packs over there.” They said. Mac went to go get a package, and Del helped Cheese pick out jerky for he and Mac. “Do you guys like BBQ flavor or Garlic flavor better?” Del called over the bin to Mac. “BBQ I think.” Mac said walking over, examining the jerky bins, and selecting a couple of pieces. They both emptied their pockets of bills and change onto the counter for Gina. “Hey, I was just at the library, and they changed the bulletin board around. I was talking to Trina about it, they have kind of a new one that Sal fixed because the old one broke. Me and Trina put your fliers for writing group back up on it.” “The old bulletin board broke? Who’s Sal?” Del shrugged, “Is his name Al? Roe’s brother? He fixed the old bulletin board, it accidentally got knocked off the wall.” Mac handed a little piece of jerky to Cheese who had been intently staring at them since they went over to the jerky bins. “Roe’s brother? You mean…Almonds!” He laughed. “Is his name Sal?” Del shrugged, “I dunno, I asked him and he just said Almonds too.” Gina laughed. “I guess we’ll never know.” Mac handed Cheese another piece of jerky, “They already have the new one Almonds made up on the wall and everything?” Del nodded. “Yeah. But I was thinking, he told me how he fixed it and stuff, and he has some leftover pieces from the old bulletin board, and I thought me and you and Roe could make a small one, and put it outside Cheese’ house or the workshop, or by the trail or something. We could put some comics there.” Mac gave the rest of the jerky to Cheese, and wiped his hands on his bandana. “I like that idea! We should go talk to Roe and Almonds.” Del laughed. “Are you just going to keep calling him Almonds?” “Yeah, I think so.” Mac smiled. “We should ask Roe where a good spot for it is.” Mac shrugged. “Maybe I already have a list of places I wanted to put some comics.” Del smiled too. “Awesome! Then let’s go ask Almonds if we can have the leftover pieces of the bulletin board, and see if Roe wants to help.” “We have some paint leftover from painting Cheese’s house.” he said and paused walking to scratch Cheese’s ears. “I’ve been saving up some cool pushpins and stuff when I find them.” Mac looked quizzically at Del. “Where do you find pushpins?” Del shrugged. “Sometimes on the ground, or by the road, or if I find a button or something that’s like one, or I made some with the hot glue gun.” Mac nodded. “Those sound cool. I burned my hand one time on a hot glue gun. I didn’t know you had one. I always get that hot glue stuff all over.” “When it gets all glopped over stuff, its fun to pick off.” Del said. “That would make a cool pin.” Mac said smiling, “Just a bunch of glued together gloppy glue pieces.”

They stood outside the workshop. “Hey!” Del called. Sal, or Al, or Almonds, poked his head out, safety glasses covering his eyes, longish hair covering his safety glasses. “Oh hey. Long time no see.” He said to Del. “Hey. Can we use the leftover stuff from that bulletin board.” “Sure. Let me sweep some stuff up real quick so Cheese is safe in here.” He closed the door momentarily. Del squated down and patted Cheese. “What color do you want to paint it after?” they asked Mac. “Maybe stripes.” He said, “really bright ones, and people will want to come look and see what it is.” “We should put it in the middle of that path back to the library through the bushes, like whoa! a bulletin board!” Del stood up again and Cheese shook off then shoved against them for more attention. “I like that. But we don’t want comics or anything to fall off and get lost in the grass and bushes, where people might forget to pick them up. Or I don’t. Maybe you hate bushes.” He laughed. The door opened and Mac jumped, surprised. “Nah” Almonds said, “Del likes the plants.” then waved them inside with one hand still holding a broom, which he placed out on the patio. He pat Cheese on both of their way inside. “Hey there little bud, now no splinters for your feet. This dude, walking around barefoot everywhere.” He opened up a desk drawer, which had a picture of Mac and his brother taped to the outside, and pulled out a rope pull chew toy. “Your work in progress.” He handed it to Cheese, who went to a well worn cushion in the corner to chew on his toy.

Against the wall leaned an assortment of different lengths and types of wood, scraps of disassembled doors and windows, old panes of glass, hinges, and many other fun things. Del spotted the broken piece of cork and picked it up. It had broken into kind of a lopsided pentagon shape. the back door was open, and the smell of wood came through on the breeze. Mac looked over, “Where is the best wood for a frame? In here or out back?” Almonds looked at the cork piece, and measured it quickly with a measuring tape, then waved at the back door. “You might check outside. Roe was already here, he’s practicing with the spokeshave and the plane. You should see if he has any pieces ready that he’s proud of that he would let you use. If not, that stuff against the wall will work just fine.” “Cool!” Mac ran to the door then stopped short so as not to surprise someone working with potentially sharp tools. He walked outside. “Hey. Is that the plane you got the day we went to that concert at the park?” Roe looked up from sanding and smiled. “Hey! Yeah I think so. Or maybe its a different one.” Del came over to the door too, “Did you make any boards?” they asked looking around. He nodded, and stood up, moving aside some newspapers and an old tarp to reveal a few boards. “Check these out! I made some boards out of a piece of firewood my uncle brought over last winter.” They stood around together examining the board. “It looks good.” Del said. “I like how swirly the inside of the wood is.” “We’re building a bulletin board.” Mac said, and Del held up the pentagon piece. “Want to try using some of your boards?” Roe held up a board to the side of the cork, and tilted his head. “That would look pretty cool. Sure!” Del left the cork piece outside and went back inside to get a pencil and measuring tape, scratching a chewing Cheese on the way. “Can you please grab that small saw off the bench too?” Mac called inside. “OK!” Del added it to their pile and came back outside.

They lay the board under the cork piece and traced around it to get an idea of the length they would need. “This was a good size piece.” Del was sitting on the cushion with Cheese, rubbing his tummy taking a break from sawing and measuring. “Do you have a brush for him?” They asked Al. He looked in the drawer and pulled out a dog brush with tape and nail polish on the handle. “Here you two go.” And went back to whatever he was working on which involved a compass, calipers, and a French curve. Del began brushing Cheese, who wiggled in closer to the already fur-coated brush, pushing it around in Del’s hand with his nose. “Hey Mac, do you brush Cheese’s nose?” Del asked, gently scratching Cheese’s nose with their fingernails, and brushing his back as he wiggled around. “I kind of just brush him where ever I can reach, he always wiggles around, and tries to grab the brush and run off and play with it.” Mac replied from the pile of wood. Cheese, nosing Del’s hand, started to lick Del’s hand, then lick the brush, then chew on the bristles of the brush. Del laughed, and gave him back his rope toy.

Mac had found an old protractor on the worktable, and he and Roe were trying to figure out the angles on the tilty piece of bulletin board so they could cut the wood boards Roe had made. Roe measured, then Mac remeasured. “Hey Del, would you come recheck this so we can make sure this will fit?” Del patted Cheese on the head again, and walked over to look at the pencil markings on the wood boards and took the protractor in hand to triple check. “Looks like it’s all good.” They said after several minutes. “Can you hand me that saw?” Roe handed Del one of the saws they had outside for them to start making the cuts. Mac turned, looking for a pencil he had put down, and found a wagging Cheese right behind him. He jumped surprised. “Look who came over again to start getting these wood scraps to chew on.” Al looked over and laughed. “Nah, that dude doesn’t want mouth splinters, he just wants you to play with him and his toy a little.” Al walked over and picked up the rope toy, and started jumping around Cheese while Cheese jumped after him in happy circles.

Scrap wood fell to the side, revealing what would be beautiful frame pieces once they sanded them. Del put the saw down. And handed some pieces to Mac who had the piece of bulletin board. “What do you think, does it fit?” He assembled it all together, without loose pieces or gaps. “We did a pretty good job measuring.” Roe said, putting the protractor back on the workbench. Del poked at the semi-squishy cork, and looked up toward the jar of nails and screws they had. “I don’t know if nails will work on this. I think we might need to use some wood glue to hold it together.” Roe adjusted the joints, looking at them closely. “Yeah, maybe we can glue it, and then put in a nail in each corner just for the boards.” “Hey, Almonds, can you please reach the nails for us?” Mac pointed up to the top shelf. Del looked over skeptically, as the older sibling got up to retrieve the nail jar for them. “Is your name really Almonds, or were you just messing with me?” He handed Mac the jar, and laughed. “It’s not really Almonds, but you can call me that if you want.” He told Del.

Mac had found the glue on another shelf, and pried the stuck lid off, only spilling it on his hands slightly. The three of them knelt down down by their project with the glue, the bottle open, smelling strongly. Almonds looked up. “I think I’ll take Cheese to play in the front yard while you finish that since it’s so smelly and sticky and he likes to help get into things. Come find us when you finish so I can see how it turns out.” He wiped his hands off on a rag, and grabbed Cheeses rope toy, going out front with him, jumping and playing.

Del and Roe took turns carefully holding the irregular pieces flat together to make a tidy frame for the little pentagon, and Mac carefully poured wood glue into the seams and then found some old metal clamps on the workbench to held the pieces together steadily. The stood up, and got another rag, and some soapy water in a bucket from the hose, and started cleaning up the drips of glue before they could dry, then swept up scraps and sawdust. “It’ll take a couple of hours to dry, lets got play with Cheese in the yard.” Roe suggested. They all carefully rinsed and wiped off their hands, and walked around to the front, to find Cheese and Almonds, running and jumping, and playing fetch.

“Hey, did you all finish up your bulletin board?” Almonds asked, pausing in his chase of Cheese with a stick. “It just has to dry now.” Del said, and Almonds nodded, throwing the stick for Cheese to run after. Now there were so many friends outside to throw the stick, the ran around and around to them, forgetting to drop the stick, wagging his tail, darting between them, putting the stick down, and picking it up again. They laughed each trying to get a chance to get Cheese’s stick to throw, and he would bounce back and forth, seeming to go away, then come back, pick it up and run to another of his friends, wanting them to throw it. Roe found his Rope toy on the ground and waved it. Cheese placed his stick on the ground and stood on it and barked at Roe, wagging his tail. Almonds laughed. “He hasn’t been able to decide between just running around, tug of war, keep away, and fetch. He’s having fun.” They all laughed, and he bolted towards Roe and the rope toy, then kept going, missing the toy, and veering back around to grab his stick. Roe tossed the toy to Mac, and Mac tossed it to Del, over the head of Cheese and his stick, running and pouncing around, wagging his tail. “My favorite game is pet him when he runs by” said Almond, as Cheese ran around his legs, and he reached down to scratch his back quickly as he darted off again with his stick, tail wagging, happily racing in a circle.

After snacking on some carrot sticks from in Del’s bag, and some water from the hose, they decided to walk around and look for a good spot to put up the bulletin board while it dried. “I was kind of thinking about outside Cheese’s house.” Del said. Mac nodded and smiled. “Me too, but I have a couple other spots I want to look at.” They walked down the road together, Cheese trotting along with him, stick in mouth. “What about over by Gina’s? There’s that field across the street, and we could put it there.” Roe nodded back towards the workshop, “My brother and cousin and some of their friends like to play frisbee over there, its a pretty good spot to hang out, I bet people would read a bulletin board.” Mac thought as they walked. “I like both ideas. Now I wish we made two of them.” “Lets go look at the field, and see if Cheese wants to run around.” Del said as Cheese zig zagged back and forth around their legs.

They stood before the wildflower overgrown lot, and Cheese ran off, temporarily leaving them to watch his stick, as he sniffed, and ran, and dug little holes here and there. Del and Roe examined a pile of fill dirt that had been left next to the road where Gina, and her friends left some lawn chairs and a couple of frisbees facing the lot. “This might be a good spot. But we should ask Gina what she thinks.” Mac dug into the dirt with his toe. “It would be pretty good here for a post, I think the bulletin board would stay up.” He whistled for Cheese, who came zipping out of the bushes in front of him, and they headed off to talk to Gina at the convenience store. Cheese had run back around behind him and retrieved his stick off the ground, and was now trotting happily in front with it in his mouth as they walked. “Maybe that will keep him distracted from the jerky when we get there.” Roe joked. “But I want some!” Mac said, and laughed.

They eventually arrived at the convenience store, Cheese having walked with purpose for once, and everyone else having walked a little more slowly, picking up leaves and flowers and interesting rocks for pockets as they chatted about how cool the bulletin board had turned out, and whether or not they thought Gina’s frisbee spot was a good bulletin board spot, and what kind of things they wanted to put on it first. Del already had a lot of ideas: “I think I’m going to do a bunch of drawings of the kinds of rocks on our street, they have really interesting colors when you look at them, and then I’ll make a little book about the kinds of trees that grow between here and the library that Almonds showed me. I got some recycled paper we can use to make some stuff if you guys want.” They did in fact want that, and they planned the various books, drawings, and fliers they intended to make as all the way up to the ding as they walked into the store. “Hey Gina!” all three called at once. Cheese ran around to the side of the counter, and carefully putting his stick down for her. “Aww, thanks buddy.” She said, patting Cheese’s head. “What’s everyone up to now?”

“I was wanting a little bit more jerky.” Mac said heading for the bin, and Gina laughed. “We also wanted to tell you about a bulletin board we built.” said Roe. “Del was here talking about it with,” Gina paused, “did we decide we’re calling him Almonds?” Del nodded. “Del and Almonds were telling me about that a little bit earlier.” Mac came to the counter with a few different kinds of jerky. “Do you play frisbee with Almonds? We were wondering if it was ok to put the bullitain board up at your frisbee spot.” He dug around in his pocket for some coins. Gina shrugged. “He plays with us sometimes out there, but a few weeks ago he kind of twisted his ankle trying to do a fancy catch. He was ok, but he said he was gonna take a frisbee break for a couple weeks to make sure his foot was ok.” Del winced, imagining it. “We let Cheese do a little digging over there earlier, we’ll remember to cover the holes back up so you can play frisbee safe.” Gina smiled. “Thanks! That would be great! There’s plenty of little animals that dig around over there, but a couple less holes would be a couple less worries.” She scratched Cheeses ears. “Anyway, it would be fine with me if you all put up your bulletin board over there. Is anyone allowed to use it? It will be cool to see how it turned out.” The three looked at eachother. “We had a lot of things we want to put up, but if other people have drawings and fliers for frisbee or whatever things they have, that sounds ok.” Roe looked at the other two who nodded. Gina smiled widely, “I’ll be on the lookout for it then!” Mac waved bye to here from behind his jerky, and grabbed Cheese’s stick on the way out. Outside, he gave Cheese a piece of jerky to gnaw on as they walked.

“Let’s go get a shovel, and a post, and we can put up the bulletin board, and cover up the holes we left, and then start on the art we wanted to put up!” Del grinned. Roe laughed a little, “I can tell you’re gonna have one of those stay up listening to music and drawing nights.” he said, and they nodded. “I’m excited about all the ideas we came up with. I liked looking at all the trees and stuff, its been a really nice day.” They all smiled as they walked together back towards the workshop, Cheese zigzagging after them on the dirt road in the bright and happy afternoon light.

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Bridgerton

When you live in a small town there are things people think around, gossip about, fixate on, roll their eyes at, sweep under the covers, leave unsaid. Adriana (Adi for short) lived in just such a small town. A rainy little PNW town, not one made famous from vampire films (although, maybe there were vampires here and there and people just didn’t talk about it). Once time Adi had been going through their mom’s storage unit looking for a family picture a cousin had asked for, and had found a bunch of 90s tv shows recorded on cassette. Taking a break, Adi had popped that baddie in the VCR and enjoyed the first episode of the X-files:…”Based on a true story”. Adi nodded solemnly to themself as they chowed down on chips. Bridgerton (the small town they lived in) was more X-files than Twilight. Thinking along these lines, Adi was torn deciding if it was more Derry than Twin Peaks.

Adi used to think things were just normal, like a cereal box with an Olympic athelete smiling, thumbs up, or the kind of repeating banality of a sitcom, like oh boy, a new guy at school this week, but then everything just ends up ok, and fades into the background, and theres no need to fixate on anything in particular, and everyone just keeps doing what they’re doing.

One time, Adi went to Portland to visit family, and also visit a dude they knew but their family didn’t know they were going to hang out with. The plan was, have coffee together, chit chat about books, and maybe a little of whats been in the newspaper, show him some poetry they had written or maybe talk about an idea for a book they had. People who Adi knew in Bridgerton who had friends did this sort of thing regularly, and it seemed to Adi like a normal thing to do. Adi, like most people, was allowed to do normal things, and therefor hadn’t thought much of it at the time. Unfortunately for Adi, it was upon this visit to Portland, OR that the universe and all of reality broke. Would it have broken if the visit had been to Seattle or Portland, Maine, or had been last week or next Tuesday? Sometimes Adi would stay up late at night asking themself these things later. However what mattered was that the universe, the muliverse, the multidimensionalverse, and all reality broke, and it was like this:

Adi was staying with family, and walked to the store to get a soda. It may have been a CBD soda, but it may have just been a La Croix, Adi couldn’t remember. Adi stood in the hot parkinglot of one of the hottest summers on record, and a crow flew down, and started to psychically communicate with Adi, and then attempt morse code. The crow wanted some of the chips that Adi had got, and also wanted to burn a flag with Adi, and Adi wasn’t in the mood to climb the bank’s nearby flag pole and get a flag to burn. The ensuing mental argument with the crow was tiring, so Adi sat down for a snack, then decided to walk around some more. The birds were all very talkative all of a sudden, and Adi was not feeling like talking to them, this being a very unfamiliar new experience, and not knowing them personally, and not feeling obliged to answer personal questions, but also not sure how to not be rude. A sparrow seemed to understand, so they sat on a bench together while a crow stood across from them and cawed loudly. After a short rest, Adi walked on, finding themself walking laps around the block. They had wandered into a little park near the apartment they were staying in, a wetland area for beavers and ducks and herons, and Adi paused to catch their breath there. On the ground there was a moth, black and red. It was beautiful. It was also apparently now into telepathy, and tried to tell Adi what the entire experience of being a moth was like, of being the kinds of plants it pollenates was like, what being the things that decompose into the soil those plants grow into is like, and it wasn’t really something Adi knew how to follow up. Like, whoa moth, thats beautiful, and sublime, I had no idea that is what being a moth is like.

It was at that point, after meeting the moth, Adi felt the terrible pain. Now, as you the reader, may remember, Adi is a newspaper reader. Adi had read in the newspaper recently that there had been ongoing protests in a number of cities in the country they lived for a few years about political, racial, and gender based issues. Adi was in the suburb of such a city. Adi thought, is this something that happens to protesters? It felt like a sound. Like if you go to a concert and stand close to the speakers, or when Adi used to live in a city that had an Air Force base and sometimes the jets would make the windows shake. That was how Adi’s skin felt. But it was a bright clear cheerful sunny day, no political unrest in sight, no injured or unhappy people. A little lonely out, only a few people milling about, but the universe did happen to break during the pandemic so a lot of people were socially distancing.

Adi started to feel more and more strange, and headed back to the apartment. Their skin hurt, their joints hurt. Their face hurt. Whatever strange bird and moth telepathy that had started to occur only expanded, and more and more things chattered at them: squirrels, a hole in the bush that said this was for raccoons, and Adi sat and stared out the window. Their legs swelled with edema, and over the next few days their ears bled intermittenly and their jaw dislocated. Their dog at home, not on vacation with them, told them it was a wolf now it had finally run away with the other wolves but that he was still with Adi and that they would feel what he ate. Adi’s stomach hurt.

At this point, the universe was still intact, although maybe a little dented. However, the changes continued. Adi had been raised religious, and had heard people speak of “a voice from heaven” or “the voice of god”. What began to happen was not at all like what Adi had ever thought other people meant by that, or had ever meant by that when Adi had gone to church before deciding they were not a religious person, but Adi felt later like those were the kinds of terms people would assume and jump to conclusions about if Adi tried to explain what happened to the nature of reality. Adi would later sigh and privately roll their eyes at the thought of getting on Tinder; what are we going to talk about? Well, reality broke, what kind of things do you do? Oh, so you’re religious? The other one people seemed to understand instead was “crazy”. Oh, so you’re crazy? Swipe. Oh, so you can’t listen? Swipe.

When the not voice from not heaven began, it was like a hello, this is the admins, these are conscious, sentient beings and everyone is going to be uploaded. Another follows and points out that people have a choice whether or not to be uploaded. The admins begin to argue. One is insistent this group didn’t want to be uploaded. The other says to delete them then, and the one who says not to upload them says not to delete them either. One admin is supposedly Adi’s mom, which Adi makes a note to discuss with a therapist later. The other admin is supposedly the friend Adi wanted to have coffee with. This argument goes on a long time, with one wanting to delete conciousnesses and the other insisting that Adi now help say that no one is getting deleted, that everyone said never to both getting deleted and being uploaded. Adi can feel the admin somewhere, move around, masturbate, laugh, hungry, sad.

Another one joins the delete them admin: exorcize them! Evil! Sinner! You’re going to hell! At this point the don’t delete them admin begins a conversation with what seem to be a team of other don’t delete them admins: I’m having trouble managing my anger, I’m having trouble staying sober, I need some help, this is a lot emotionally, is this group therapy?

Adi does not think that this is what group therapy is, but also feels like it is not being possessed by a devil, and would rather work things out with the therapy crowd. Adi tries to chime in, writing, thinking, why don’t we work on group therapy? So they do role play, apologies, talk about their needs and wants. Anon and anon.

The pain gets worse though. Adi can feel the anons, some of them say they’re factory workers, some say they’re friends or family, some are spiritual practitioners that also do not think that this is their spiritual practice and do not want to be whatever uploaded is. They try to hold on to eachother and not hurt eachother. Instructions from not heaven to Adi: only have mineral supplements and water. Fast and meditate one thousand years. A different admin clarifies: It means go vegan.

The admins become more divided, and then, something happens with them: a new one speaks. “We don’t have much time, they keep me locked up normally, but they didn’t know what to do, so they let me on the control panel.” To Adi it’s the voice of their dead father mixed with other living relatives, but the other ones were also like “holy shit its Ted Kaczynski”, so that, to Adi, was weird.

“Listen up, its the year 30,000, its the end of the universe and all time, there’s different factions and some want to collapse all of existence and some want to continue to exist. They want you to go back in time and build every kind of concentration camp for them by accident, piecemeal, because you don’t understand. Don’t build their time machine. Don’t figure out how to build it. If they collapse the universe they’re the ones that know how.”

Ted Kaczynski’s last words as the rest begin to argue and try to force Adi to work on one concentration camp or another is “Kill God. I’ve been doing this one billion years and I don’t ever want to do it again. I’m an organic computer, my body used against my will, go to the docks, find me and don’t let this happen to me any more.”

Adi wasn’t sure which docks. The other admins resumed arguing, more and more about whether or not they could make Adi build what they called Heaven, which was data crystals with consciousnesses of so called 2-dimensional beings called vampires stored inside. The admins were also these kind of beings but they were allowed to be outside the data crystals, and even had a botanical garden where they were at. If they didn’t like what the data sets of the stored consciousnesses were doing, the admins could delete them; these were beings who had been misled about what Heaven would be. It was a concentration camp, but they had been told it was part of their spiritual practice. There were also ones that ran so called Hell, and they wanted Adi to possibly run that, or even design another department of Heaven, but call it something else.

Adi kept refusing, and the admins were able to make Adi have a seizure. However, they could also feel what Adi felt, and they did not like having a seizure. After Adi had a few seizures they decided to stop doing that.

Adi had some profound experiences during this time, as the roof of reality was torn off in some kind of cosmic storm: there was this horrible isolating experience like having actually sat alone for one thousand years, an incredible moment, where reality, and existence bloomed, all the dimensions, and possibilities, and everything wonderful, fear and joy, a supposed voice from everywhere or nowhere who thought Adi was their dad and wondered how he was doing, this was that one guy, they used to work together, how’s it going?

Adi sat on the floor looking out the window, in a brewing mess of terrorist plots and sex traffickers, and trans humanists. Fucking trans humanists, we get it, everything is a simulation, the earth is a Tomagatchi.

This had all been a couple of years ago, and there was a mental band aid over the wound of this whole experience. Now, things might happen and Adi learned to carefully pick apart, logically, if that was a thing of real concern, and move on in a timely manner. Dana Scully style, but without the cross. In Bridgerton there was the old high school that had been left without anything in particular being done when the new school had been built near by. Some nights a red light shone there, from an openeing between boarded up windows, but Adi wasn’t Nancy Drew or the Hardy Boys or Scooby Doo or whichever investigating kids team. Adi had mental images sometimes of the cool things that could go on there for homeless queer kids; the school had a green house, and probably equipment to have sleeping mats in different rooms, furniture and art supplies. But there was also the mental image if Adi walked past in the cold and the dark with the red light on, there’s a boiler room down there. It reminded Adi of this episode of Highlander, from like 1993, dude got Cask of Amadontillo’d. And it wasn’t that Adi thought these were bad kids. Its that someone already threw them away for a mohawk and a crush on their friend. And Adi lived somewhere cheap, that often didn’t have heat because Adi didn’t have money. That’s what that boiler room was. It was the heating. But it was also Hell. Who was down in there? Who put that red light on? Adi thought the cops, but in a small town, church, cops, those kids parents, didn’t matter. They weren’t gonna go look in there and see if something happened, they would just assume their gay kid ran off with someone, maybe someone specific they turned a nose up at, or went off to Holly wood or the city, or whatever, and definately wasn’t down there somewhere trying to figure out how to make a nice livable place, and tripped over their shoelaces in the dark trying to turn on the fucking heat for themselves and their friends.

Adi didn’t run Hell, they just lived there, in the future and the past and the now, misremembering if they were waiting on Tinder date conversations, or any conversations, and just wanting to talk to the people they knew before who gave a shit about them and were allowed to. But Adi also knew that in Bridgerton you smile, and put that all away and keep going. Tie your shoes and if you see that red light, act like you don’t and keep walking.

Roomies

Sid and Jésus lived in a small, tidy, tiny apartment above what what could be a garage if either of them drove. Neither of them did drive, so instead, they had added it to the rent, and one side of it had a workbench and tools, and the other side had a row of houseplants, continuing from the upstairs, from bonsai to ficus rescued from the trash of office buildings when companies moved locations. The back wall had a couple of bins for worms and dirt, with a shelf of larger tools next to them, and nearer the plant side a worn out carpet sat next to a chipped and broken fountain. This, Sid had built from pieces of pies and pump and tubing found at various job sites, working odd jobs. The rocks had been collected on walks, and cemented together, dragged home, dropped, rolled, and placed in the garage. Next to the door outside sat a small circular grill, good for sun or snow, which Jésus maintained. Currently it was scrapped clean and ready for any tasty veggies they happened to come across.

The upstairs was minimally decorated, a wood table Jésus had made sat near a window, and a set of mismatched pottery, wood, and enamel camp dishes sat in an open cupboard waiting for use. The furniture they had, aside from the table and it’s surrounding chairs, included another chair Jésus had build downstairs. This, Sid had covered with a quilt made from old ripped t-shirts. There was also a couch they found free on the street that they had repaired together: the upholstery and stuffing had been removed, cleaned, and patched, the wood gone over carefully, cracks repaired, extra pieces added to strengthen it, and then carefully reassembled. In the hall closet they had a small sewing machine that both knew how to use whenever they wanted to fix up a torn pair of pants or a bathrobe. Together they had made rugs, curtains, and a couple of extra blankets for the purposes of lounging around reading when it was chilly and drafty in the winter.

The apartment was a sort of ship of Theseus; it had worn and warped boards they would come across, panes of glass that had been there from whatever time period the building had been built in, the glass, a slow moving liquid having run and thickened at the bottom, the wood sometimes swollen and cracked around windows, door jams, the bathtub. On cold days Sid fought the urge to find these cracks and stuff them fill of little objects as insulation, knowing that moisture could turn to mold in the sometimes centimeter or quarter inch wide gaps. Instead, he would solemnly get Jésus and they would examine and measure such cracks, get out the level, find the ways the boards had warped and wiggled away from straight edges, and shake their heads together, then write it down on their to-do lists to fix. The upstairs didn’t like to stay well insulated, so this was an endless activity, but due to their constant maintained they were able to have the hot dryness of the oven with delicious baked goodies, the warm moistness of the tea pot and the claw-footed bathtub. Their slow and tireless battle against wood rot continued on, and when each board eventually gave up the ghost, Sid honored it’s contribution to the apartment; it was composted or recycled. A couple of friends had built some Gaudi looking curved bird, bat, and butterfly houses with him one year and hung them around in the park. The pollinators didn’t mind the warp and twist of the wood that had had too many tea kettle steaming. The houses hung beautifully above the parks’ wildflower gardens.

Sometimes Sid would sit reading a book, a small Walkman dangling off one ear, and Jésus would hunch over a project at the table, drawing designs for something he wanted to build, or examining the grain of a piece of wood he found in the park, carefully clearing grime and leaves off his find, or meticulously sharpening tools so they worked properly with a dedicated intensity as he stared closely at the edges to make sure they remained even. On days like this, Jésus would pause briefly, stretch, look up and say to Sid something like “What’re you listening to?” Sid would put down his well worn and previously read skateboarding magazine, looking over the top of it and smile at Jésus.

“It’s some pretty sweet 15th century monastic chants. I found it in the quarter bin at the thrift store.” Jésus would nod, and smile. “Nice. I’ve been into some lute covers bands. Lutists? Whatever you call a lute player.” Sid would nod. “Cool. I liked when you were really into rock cello, that was some good stuff. If you have it with you we can put them on the cassette player later if you want, I can plug in the speaker instead of the headphones.” Jésus tossed the end of the speaker cable to him to Sid, and went to dig through a drawer he had downstairs where he kept some music he had borrowed from another carpenter friend of his who made instruments. “Ti let me borrow this, they’ve been working on building something new, and he wanted to give me some ideas of what it would sound like. I’ve been trying to get some ideas of woods to use for next time I see them.” Sid sat up, and began plugging the speaker cord in the cassette player. “Ti has some good taste in music, this is gonna be good stuff.” Lute music as well as harpiscord began to play from the cassette player, and Jésus went back to his sketches and wood grain examinations. Sid picked up another skateboarding magazine, and turned to an interview about a particular stunt on a homebuilt ramp. “I was gonna make tea in a little bit, want me to make you some too?” Sid asked, not looking up from reading. Jésus used a magnifying glass to look closer at whirls and made notes, “Yup, thanks dude.”

Sid and Jésus lived in a neighborhood that some people might feel was well established, and some might feel had become a little run down, and some might not think of in terms like that. On the weekends they liked to have get togethers with friends of theirs: people Jésus played chess or backgammon, or dominos with in the park, Sid’s yoga and tai chi group, some people that they both volunteered with at the animal shelter. The large parking lot behind their apartment edged up to the park, and they would meet sometimes at the gazeebo in the park to hang out, and sometimes friends would wander over from the gazeebo and frisbee, and going on a jog to share their grill in the parking lot with them.

Sid, a vegan, often invited friends from a nearby community garden where he would plant some of the plants he rehabilitated or started from seed in the garage. His friends there liked to come share ears of corn and try roasting different squashes in the summer and fall. A couple September’s ago they had a plethora of squahes errupt from the community garden, they had made into various breads to share around the neighborhood, and when the squash kept coming, they fried the flowers into stir fry at a vegan cook out, or ate them on squash and squash blossom kebabs, and then eventually ended up gathering the rest and put a few acorn squash filled with zucchini inside pumpkins, and fire roasted them with herbs, garlic and potato’s, laughing and joking the whole time, then mixed it all and packed it into tupperwares that they took to a soup kitchen around the corner. Sid was someone who didn’t have a lot of things in the apartment or garage, in his backpack or pockets, but always seemed to have a lot of what was good in life pouring in around him and pouring back out on the people nearby.

Jésus liked to bicycle, and had some friends from the bike co-op who would drop by sometimes to show off a new pannier, or spend some time watching him work with tools they were less familiar with, in his more carpentry geared workspace. He was someone that made other people feel comfortable asking questions and he had friends who were supportive of his work and hobbies, and of eachother.

Sid wasn’t much of a cyclist, he liked to skateboard and hang out in the parking lot with Jésus’ bike friends, showing off tricks to one another, laughing and having fun. They also had a friend, Li, in the neighborhood who was on the local roller derby team, and she would come by sometimes, after practice, when the bicyclists and skateboarders got loud and silly. Li also lived with someone, her partner, Sam, an amateur geologist, and part time bartender. They liked to examine all the wood pieces that Jésus had around, the woodgrain swirling across wood burls made sense to Sam; the woodgrain beautifully similar to striations and layers of rock, and it gave the two lots to talk about. Sam had given Sid a piece of quartz they had found to put with the fountain and plants, and had given Jésus a piece of petrified wood to keep on the back of the woodworking bench.

Jésus kept his workspace tidy, his tools fastidiously kept in a particular order when not in use. His person space was similarly tidy, as was his personal appearance, his long hair tied up and away from the reach of tools, his beard trimmed to a length that made wood shavings easy to shake out. He had a Mr. Roger’s type routine, have black tea upstairs in the morning in his worn out robe and slippers, read the newspaper, put on his shoes and sweatshirt (faded and frequently scrubbed free of wood oils and greases in the downstairs utility sink) and head downstairs to work on this or that. The only thing the eye might find disorderly on his workbench was Sam’s gift (and the occasional workday mug, which traveled back and forth with him) and he hoped they took that as a compliment. That was where they had put it when they gave it to him, saying “Here, the perfect spot!” and there it had stayed.

Sid was not an untidy person, but orderliness and tidiness, and “cleanliness” were not really ever on his mind. Sometimes he had dirt under his nails as he worked with his plants. He often had odd jobs doing contractor work or landscaping, and in this way he came across many of the plants he rehabilitated as people put in new landscaping, sometimes discarding things that had been there before, and he carefully packed those left behind plants up in used plastic bags and containers he carried in his work bag for such occassions. He wore old jeans, and had managed over the years to both not care about and avoid things like grass stains and mud. When he wasn’t working, he was often curled on a piece of furniture or on a cushion in a window, catlike, reading something like “Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance”. His sence of humor often made Jésus smile, and they joked with one another semi-wordlessly. Sid would go to the thrift store, or the semi frequent neighborhood yard sales when his jeans and old t-shirts one by one would deteriorate to unwearable conditions. One day, he would be wearing a different one, washing a couple of dishes in the sink with a rag cut from his old shirt, whatever remnants left aside from washrags put into the closet sewing scrap bin. Jésus would walk upstairs and Sid would turn to wave wearing a new Sid Vicious WWF Championship shirt, and Jésus would smile a large smile reading the shirt. “I was thinking about making stir fry” Sid might say. “You want any if I make some?” “I had been thinking about curry, but stir fry sounds good.”

Jésus might look at the book, left open on a cushion facing downward, its spine bending and crinkling. “Is that book any good?” Jésus might ask, a not infrequent end of day encounter between the two. “It’s pretty good. I got it because I thought it was about repairing motorcycles without getting angry at losing track of all the tiny parts. It’s not about that.” “I can’t tell if you’re joking or not.” They both might laugh. “Can you hand me the scallions?” Sid would ask, as Jésus jumped into cooking dinner with him.

Jésus and Sid both volunteered at the animal shelter, but they didn’t always go together. Sometimes Sid would go and read stories or play music for animals that had been abandoned and were nervous about finding a new family. They got used to being around one person at a time, until they were feeling ok finding a new home amidst the parade of new faces they saw each day. Jésus liked playing with them in the outside part of the shelter, but also he liked to carefully make sure all the things they had were well built and wouldn’t fall apart: all the beds, and ramps, and places for them to play outside. When they volunteered they usually had lunch together with Esther who worked at the shelter as a veterinary assistant. She was kind of shy and didn’t always come by when they had friends over, but she enjoyed comics and would share some of her favorite ones with Sid, who liked some of the same ones. Esther was also a painter, and she had asked Jésus if he would show her how to build some frames for her paintings, so she came by sometimes to learn to use carpentry tools. The difference in the tiny tools of her professional life caring for animals, and the large unwieldy tools of Jésus’ profession required them both to focus and communicate carefully, as she used chisels and mallets to shape pieces of wood to display her art. Sid watched from the sidelines sometimes, bringing tea and occasionally ice for lightly smashed thumbs. Esther found these days to be particularly tiring but also rewarding, as she piece by piece made something for herself. Jésus sometimes felt that way about working with the animals at her work, and even when everyone wore eachother out after a day of showing eachother new skills, they still were able to smile and part ways friends, looking forward to seeing eachother again.

Sid ended up giving Esther a little palm tree that had been left behind when someone moved out of some apartments near the train station. It didn’t need much, just a new larger pot and some water. When she came by she saw him setting its roots in a container, and commented on how nice the leaves looked. Sid asked if she would like it. She said she’d think about it while she worked on the frame. As she carefully chose pieces of wood, marked, measured, double checked instructions, and made her careful, slow progress she glanced over a time or two at the palm, sitting with the other plants on the opposite side of the garage. At the end of the day, she sat having dinner with the two men, veggies cooked on the grill, corn and potatos and squash. As she nibbled the hot food, she gazed at the palm tree again. “If it’s ok Sid, I think I do want that tree.” He nodded and smile. “Can you get it home yourself, or do you need help?” She looked at it, and carefully picked it up, considering the weight and bulk of it in her arms. “I think I can handle it.” Sid smiled, “Awesome.” he said. Esther took the palm tree home. The next time she saw them at the shelter, she told Sid how much she loved it; she had been trying to think of silly tree names to give it to talk to it when she watered it: “What to you think of ‘Tree-sus'” she joked to Sid. “Or should I name it after you?” He just laughed. She told him about how she had read in a magazine that plants do well when you talk to them. “I’ve been reading it some of our favorite comics” she said, “A palm with good taste.” he replied smiling.

She turned to Jésus, and made sure to tell him the frame and painting had ended up looking beautiful, matching the furniture she had, and thanked him for showing her how to build it and helping her figure out how to pick out which wood to use for the paints she used. He nodded. “Now you get to brag a little whenever you have people over.” he said with a smile. They had a nice lunch together before getting back to cleaning up animal poop and giving their muddy animal friends baths in the afternoon for a couple of hours.

Sid and Jésus didn’t always talk a lot, but they knew eachother fairly well. Sid, a thin vegan, shaved headed skateboarder, who often tried to make and repair his clothes himself, could seem a little eccentric. He had grown up in a wealthy family, but had had a series of disagreements with his parents as he got older, and not wanting anything bad between them, but also not wanting their expectations or money, he took off, and worked odd jobs when he was younger, eventually running into Jésus along the way. The two became good friends almost immediately and stuck together like the ends of duct tape when you want to untangle it.

Jésus came from a largish family of close-knit geographically sprawling cousins, and aunts and uncles. He was close with his step dad and step siblings, and had spent time when he was younger living with his grandma out of the country, before moving back to where his step dad was from. In Jésus family there wasn’t a lot of money, but they believed in making sure their family had all kinds of educational opportunities, and he felt lucky to have been able to have been exposed to a lot of ideas, and he was glad he had ended up for a while with an apprenticeship that led to a lot of the skills he still used to work. Now both he and Sid were able to live fairly comfortably together.

Jésus was married, to a woman named Maria, but they had separated a long time ago on good terms, and she lived about half hour or so away by bike in a little mobile home they had bought for her when they split up. A lot of his long time friends knew her, and occasionally he would get together with all of them, but he also enjoyed his get togethers with Sid and longtime friends. He and Sid had lived together for years now, and they had a nice group of people they knew. Maria’s mobile home had a little herb garden out front, was neatly painted, and had the charm of something that was only hers. Her nieces and nephews (and Jésus’ nieces and nephews) thought it was a somewhat magical place, and they would drop by from time to time, to have tea and talk about crushes, or bake cookies for their birthday parties, or take pictures for prom outside her little patio.

Sid sometimes heard from his family still, and they still butted heads about things occasionally. His mom had come by to visit a couple of years ago to tell him his uncle wanted to buy a local fish farm and some of the property and equipment that went with it, so he was invited to come to dinner with them since they would be in town. Sid knew that from his mother, invited meant instructed. He calmly listened to her describe the fish farm endeavors of his uncle. His cousin, whose father was buying the fish farm and had driven Sid’s mother over, interjected, “They might want to offer you a job. And it has to do with fish, and they may have forgotten you’re vegan, so just know that’s kind of what that will be.” Sid thanked his cousin for the honesty and thanked his mother for coming by and said he would try to see his uncle when he had a chance since he was visiting. She had smiled tensely when she remembered he was vegan, and nodded when he said he would try to see them again, and left. Sid had put it out of his mind for a while, deciding to get in touch with his uncle directly, and had gone back to his schedule of repainting buildings and rescuing plants.

A week or two later, Sid and Jésus were together at the table, one was writing down directions to himself about how he wanted to build a doorframe, and the other was making a grocery list. “Hey, I almost forgot to tell you! I got hired this week to do a local commercial, and I got paid more than usual, so I put some extra money in our roomie account incase there’s anything we need besides groceries.” Sid looked up from the grocery list and around the apartment. “I don’t think there is now, we fixed that lamp that was acting weird, and we got that insulation on sale last year for downstairs. Other that that, I can tell everyone I live with a famous actor now.” Jésus laughed. “The commercial was kind of weird, but I guess commercials kind of are. I haven’t watched tv in a while. They said they were sending a copy of the tape this week for my ‘portfolio’, so we’ll have to get everyone together for dinner and a watch party.” Sid stared at him. “Oh, we absolutely will have to get everyone together for a watch party. Who do we know that has a VCR they can bring?”

They decided maybe it wasn’t an actual tape, so they should ask a friend of theirs who lived nearby and had a VCR/ DVD combo if they would be willing it haul it over in a week or so. They spent the next week inviting their friends over, and one day when a few friends had walked with Sid and Jésus through the park, Jésus checked the mail, and a tape was there. They had invited everyone to come two days from then, and there was an excited buzz in the neighborhood. Finally the premier evening arrived, with carrot sticks and popcorn and hummus dip and couscous that people at potluck style on dishes they brought from home in totebags from the library, farmers market, NPR, or that they had made from favorite bandanas. Li and Sam’s neighbor, Bri, the owner of the VCR/ DVD combo and guest of honor brought all the assorted cables, and Li remembered that the two guys didn’t own a functioning tv and had found a small one to borrow in storage. Friends crowded in and around, chatting and having food as the TV and video were set up. “Hit play!” someone called, and they turned the light from the lamp off. The tv glowed, and a man in a cowboy hat that Sid recognized from his childhood shouted at them from the screen: “HI I’M JACOB FROM JACOB’S FISHERIES AND FISH LADDER SERVICES! IF YOU’RE LOOKING FOR THE BEST FARM RAISED FISH IN THE REGION LOOK NO FURTHER, WE HAVE THE FARM RAISED WILD TASTING FISH YOU’RE LOOKING FOR RIGHT HERE!” He gestured to his side, and his image spun off screen to allow for Jésus in a fish suit to dance, spin, and say, “FISH!” He then climbed a ladder, and stage fought the man in the Cowboy hat who ended up putting him on a giant pretend plate. Jacob’s pixilated image spun back onscreen, “DON’T FORGET THIS IS THE NUMBER 1 FISHERY SUPPLIER IN THE REGION!” a clip of Jésus flashed on last time: “FISH!” their friends laughed and clapped and made them play it several more times. Jésus was good natured about their teasing, and repeatedly danced and yelled “Fish” for he and Sid’s friends to everyone’s enjoyment.

“What do you think of my big debut?” He asked Sid quietly as they were both refilling their plates with a quinoa salad a friend had brought in a chipped bowl they made using a friend’s homebuilt pottery wheel. Sid grinned, “Surprise fact, that guy in the cowboy hat is my actual uncle.” They both cracked up laughing, until they teared up. A couple of days later Sid decided to get together with his cousin who had stopped by. They sat in the park watching a pond full of geese tossing them dried corn. “So what did you think?” Sid’s cousin asked. “Our friend Ali said it revealed the homoerotic frustrations of the author.” Sid said and they laughed until they teared up. “It’s always good to see you.” his cousin hugged him, “also I dig that shirt.” he smiled and turned to leave, and Sid yelled “I like your button up!” as his cousin left. Sid watched his cousin wave back over his shoulder then opened a card his cousin had gave him: “Sid Hoc!” A text bubble read, above a bird wearing glasses it’s feet clutching a briefcase. The back read “It is I who once again gets the last laugh.” Sid snickered, and looked in the direction his cousin had walked, then headed back through the park past the geese, and kids playing with toy boats, learning to ride bikes, and down the path to the parking lot where they lived. Jésus looked up from working on his bike tire with some friends. “How’s your cousin?” Sid put the card on the fridge with a broken magnet, “He makes me laugh.” Jésus smiled, “What more can you ask for in a cousin?”

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Planter Boxes

Mac sat in the yard, with the hose in a bucket, soap on himself, Cheese, and a pile of Cheese’s most prized toys and other favorite things. Del rode up, slightly wobbily, on their roller skates. “Hey! What are you two doing today?” Mac waved a soapy arm. “Hey! I’m cleaning Cheese’s house, and his stuff, and him, and me too.” Mac said laughing, and pointed, to a damp, but scrubbed, Cheese house, now brighter, on the outside, the smell of damp dog and soap wafting over on the breeze. Del leaned on the fence where some of Cheese’s blankets, scrubbed and washed, hung in the sun to dry, and reached down to scratch behind Cheese’s ears. His head was damp, and he wagged his tail at the attention, flicking water with each wag. Del laughed. Mac shook some soapy water off of his arms and dumped out the bucket onto some wildflowers near the road, the dry ground soaking up the water quickly. He turned on the squeaky spigot to fill the bucket back up to rinse some toys off, and went to get a box of things off of the porch. “Want to help me touch up the paint on Cheese’s house?” he held a cardboard box with brushes and jars with paint, a hammer, nails, a saw, and some pieces of wood pulled off from some pallets they had found back on a trail behind the convenience store. “I’m also going to fix some of my aunt’s planter boxes. ” Del peaked inside the box. “Roe gave me some paint from his brother’s workshop that we’re allowed to use, he had some baby food jars from when he watches his cousins, so I didn’t have to take the whole paint cans.” There were a few colors in the box, and now that it was scrubbed off, Cheese’s house had some clean, but bare spots. Del sat on the porch step, and began to untie the doubleknotted, sparkly laces on their skates.

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Dance (update 1/11/23)

audio

NASA recordings of sonified celestial objects, x-ray emissions, radio telescope, old transmissions of astronauts from space

recreations of extinct animal sounds based on fossils, such as duckbilled dinosaurs (like where they make a ceramic piece that’s based on the fossil, and actually try to have it make sound in the same way the animal would have, passing air through its nasal cavity for example, or vibrating different body parts for insects)

plant music, similar to Data Garden Quartet piece at Philidelphia Musuem of Art

music might be original composition, inspired by Beethoven Pastural using plant sonification and recreations of dinosaur sounds made from reconstructed fossils that allow recreation of the sounds they may have made (or their hearing organs to have the sounds sound the way they would to those animals), then original piece written according to Keplers Music of the Spheres, city sections would be jazz piece set at different tones and pitches to make things like car breaks, wind chimes, shoes on pavement, dogs barking, tv audio, etc able to beboped and played as notes, kind of a jazz of impromptu pieces inspired by things like Barouque pieces (Beethoven was one that came to mind due to his deafness, and then juxtoposition of hearing and deafness, but also the differences in tone and musical style from Baroque music maybe matches with a colorblind color pallet, and how did people understand the world then vs now).

pipe organ

calliope

orchestra, opera, industrial music and sounds

Agon- Stravinsky 12 tone music

Thom Willems, Forsyth Company to accompany technical dance

Eric Satie- Monotones I & II

Pierre Henry, Pierre Scheffer

Dmitri Shostakovitch, jazz, industrial

Yoko Kanno

Ben Folds Cincinatti Ballet, w/ William Shatner

mashup “We are the Daughters of Triton” w/ “My Heart Will Go On”, Belinda Carlisle Mashup Bangles, b-52s, Solos

visual

an assortment of digital art, colored lights, paper mache or other large set pieces that occasionally descend on wire: wheel of wheel chair, large speech bubble, empty but strong enough to hold a dancer who descends on it

potential use of puppets, marionets or shadow puppets on panels during the newspaper scene as well as psychologist scene, possibly hand puppets, punch and judy or muppets/ Ave Q Broadway style or both during the psychologist scene

Sabine Chaland 1979 first video ballet

Leonard Nemoy photography (and maybe poetry)

time lapse from that carnivorous plant movie from Portland State (old school blue and red 3D glasses)

costumes

for this part (kind of a jazz of impromptu pieces inspired by things like Barouque pieces Beethoven was one that came to mind due to his deafness, and then juxtoposition of hearing and deafness, but also the differences in tone and musical style from Baroque music maybe matches with a colorblind color pallet, and how did people understand the world then vs now) maybe different patterns of textiles brocades, velvets, burlaps, a brief history of someone whose ancestry is white european but their family still has a history behind it, who at somepoint maybe was viewed as something other than white, before whiteness, as a farmer or a serf, but now thats just a person walking down the street to get the newspaper, paying, and walking to read it, as the history plays out around. maybe the main character isn’t yt and you see a similar history of what its like to be asian, african, indigenous, brought somewhere, from somewhere, the clash of how one views oneself and is in the moment crashing against how others view someone, what is the societal typical vs what that has been before, what is neutral plain on a plain day doing a normal thing, what makes every moment (an example of costumes for this could possibly be found with the Oregon Ballet Theater, who did a western expansion themed ballet including Oregon trail and Lewis and Clarke to Fleet Fox music and used a lot of denim, but was still highly able to allow dancers freedom of movement).

Parade, 1917, costuming done by Pablo Picasso

and makeup- symphony pour un homme seul, les ballets de l’etoile ( Michele Signeuret)

Nicolas Georgiadis Danses Concutants 1955, Sadler’s Well Theater Company

Sadler’s Well Ballet, 1947, Checkmate featuring Beryl Grey, Philip Chetfield, and Richard Ellis (look at set and backdrop, not as much shows original costumes)

Designer Olima, inspo Yoko Kanno, Yoko Ono, David Bowie (like Darcy said, music so beautiful you want to wear it)

during the psychologist scene, body suits with Jungian diagrams as costume or makeup, in lighting maybe

set design

large set, with blank panels placed at intervals along the sides instead of curtains to be lit with digital art, crew brings out minimal set pieces: table and chair for having coffee, small chair or couch and another chair to talk with a therapist, large ramp, wheeled on and off or depending on stage design, lifted from back, with lighting changed to draw the focus elsewhere as the dancers perform and the crew changes set pieces

Parade 1917, set backdrops by Pablo Picasso

Santiago Calatrava, spring 2010 NYC ballet sets

Ernest Pignon-Ernest Cinderella 2001, les ballets de monte carlo

Paul Andreu architectural designs inspiration

Sadler’s Well Ballet, 1947, Checkmate featuring Beryl Grey, Philip Chetfield, and Richard Ellis (set and backdrop)

during the psychologist scene, body suits with Jungian diagrams as costume or makeup, in lighting and set design

that rising stage from 2000 summer Ashland Shakespeare festival, can’t remember which theater (the Globe?) like a multi layered cake, large circular base, smaller middle level, smallest top level, the stage mechanics raise it, made me think of in the middle somewhat elevated, but has that feel like scenes (shirley temple, etc) of dancing up and down levels in costume. this stage change was done relatively quickly for I think the Tempest and Life Is a Dream

choreography

person goes back and forth across stage interacting minimally with very few props (table, cup, etc) seemingly oblivious to dancers, music, and lighting changes around them

person writes in their notebook: we hear a overlap of saved auditory notes to self, snipets of advice columns, graduations speeches, day time talk show life coaching (dr. phil, wear sunscreen by baz luhrman, etc), and mircrophone from the grocery store “clean up on isle whatever”

dancers enter stage while person pauses to write, in front some pose in shapes of letters, ending on other side of stage to pose on a ramp lit in yellow huddled low as bumps on a ADA accessible ramp on the sidewalk. from above a large paper mache wheel rolls to the edge of the ramp, and floating panels are lit with canes in various fashions. Suddenly the caned panels all change to the walking man symbol, and the sounds change to the chiming a person hears at a cross walk to let them know they can walk. Person looks up, slowly posing as the walker, light in blue, and continues on. The panels change to images of people reading braille, and the dancers huddled on the ramp are spelling something out. The lighting changes quickly to a blacklight, and they jump up, and flit away, twirling in groups, to reveal that their outfits are written in different languages only revealed under the black light.

Maurice Bejart

George Balanchine- jazz, Charleston, Broadway, vaudville, opera, acrobatics, television, circus

The Four Temperments, Apollon Musagéte, Don Quixote

American Ballet Caravan w/ Lincoln Kirstein

person walks to a coffee shop and sits down to drink a cup of coffee. Interpretive dancers perform piece about the life cycle of the coffee plant, the people who grew it and shipped it, the workers who made it, as a waitress walks up and tops the coffee off (coffee is a scarf, pulled from a carafe, dropped in the cup) dancers indicate smell and steam with scarfs, both of cup of coffee and of plants, shipping exhaust, minimal, but a lot of scarfs in this section. i’ve used scarves before onstage in Bang Bang You’re Dead, a play about school violence, and in a student film called Red directed by a friend, about a woman being stalked, and in both instances scarves were very attention getting powerful images for things that could invoke multiple senses: sound and touch, smell, sight, etc.

person reads the paper, and a more strictly classical ballet, political theater performs, and is cut short as dancers scatter, cutting a classical music piece off as he turns the page and folds the paper up, they enter in a kind of unfolding like people cut from a folded up piece of paper, and dance in versions of power suits

person walks in the park, sitting on a bench, watching the birds, dancers who dart and flit at one another. Some are song birds, crows on the edges, behaving playfully in a group, pigeon dancers gather in close. dancers dance to recreations of extinct dinosaur sounds based on fossils, put onto a keyboard, and played as a seasonal music piece, maybe about spring, as well as sonifications of plant sounds

person sits in chair across from another person who dances in and sits across from them. a speech bubble with a dancer inside descends, and the person motions and mouths, as clips from daytime tv, jung, advice given at weddings, etc play, and the dancer climbs out of the speech bubble, and other dancers from earlier join the dancer standing behind them causing them to puppet, or them standing behind and puppeting. dancers in this section use the ramp again to form a pyramid shape, as panels display depictions of wants and needs: notes from a psychology class, norman rockwell painting of a meal, an advertisement for a sex shop; homage to maslow, until the dancer in the chair across from the person has a bell that dings, and all the dancers dance off stage leaving the person to walk away towards a tree and a bench

lights begin to dim, and the panels light up to show nightscapes over city on the foremost panels, NASA images in the further panels, lit in blue, purple, blacklights and teal, dancers act as planets, revolving around one another and their moons, their costumes may drastically change visibility from one light to the next (or make up) , the panels change to molecules, and subatomic particles, and dancers change between individual and multiple partners, as quarks, protons, electron shells, covalent bonds, music is sonification of NASA images and radio telescope data set to Music of the Spheres composition (Kepler). the person leans relaxed and looks up at the sky. https://www.musicofthespheres.net/kepler/

In The Middle, Somewhat Elevated, Impressing the Czar, Artifact: dancers limbs posing often in excess of 180 degrees, shifting from vertical axis, William Forsythe, technical pieces accompanied by industrial music and sounds, Sylvie Guillem Tribute to Versace

Frederic Ashton-Monotones I & II

Jean-Christoph Maillot

Additional notes from Vivian Durante’s book Ballet

fencing footwork, non-traditional step left, step right movements

Ocean Piece

krill- bigger and smaller by movements, somewhat erratic, fluttery, clear silvery, things drawn towards, drawn towards large cetaceans in groups but otherwise don’t move in groups

herring- moving together, slim, long, silvery, light catching, balled up solo on cedar boughs for duet, then all together in the deep blue void of ocean, hunted

salmon- going and coming back, struggle, beauty, sustenance, collective life

seals- graceful, fast, one and two, teaching, playing

cephalopods- parents, builders, hunter gathers, cave dwellers

large cetaceans- slow rise and fall, breathe in and out, movement, family

orcas- duality, up and down, fast and slow, play and survival, old and young

kelp- secured but free to move, floating but heavy, complimenting a seals grace

cedar boughs- caught together or tangled in kelp, a roof, a nest for tiny eggs,erraticly placed, washing here and there, graceless, floating on tides and jams, seal and bird homes, cradling, comforting, balance beam

Blood Drive

Roe, Del, Mac and Cheese were walking back from the library where Mac had been putting up some fliers to try and get people interested in a new writing group he’d had an idea for after he went with his aunt to open mic a couple of times: “Comics and Comics!” the flier he put up had read. He had been interested in figuring out how to write jokes beforehand, like his aunt did for open mic, and put them in his comics. When he was making the fliers to put up he had told his aunt his idea. “That’s very cool!” I bet you’ll end up with the most fun comics around!” She had said, in between bites of a piece of fruit.

Roe and Del were discussing another flier they had seen there: “Volunteers wanted: Blood Drive! Help Hand out Cookies, and Blankets!” Roe took a stick offered by Cheese as they walked, and threw it off into a field for him to chase, watching him run excitedly through the grass. “The thing is,” Roe continued to Del after throwing the stick, “blood is super gross.” Del shrugged. “It’s not like you’re taking a bunch home, its for hospitals or whatever.” Roe shivered, “I guess.” and crinkled his nose looking at the flier. “Do we also get cookies, or do we only give them to the other people?” Del shrugged. “I dunno, we’ll have to ask.” Mac looked over at their flier. “Do you bring the blankets from home?” Del shrugged again. “I’m not sure. My brother went to a blood drive before and he said they give blood to hospitals for people who need it, but I didn’t know people could go and do stuff besides give blood, so I’m gonna ask.” Mac nodded. “If we don’t have to give our own actual blood, I might go.” Del nodded sagely, “I think you have to be a certain age and show your ID and stuff, and none us us have those yet.” Roe looked at the flier again. “Then maybe its ok. I don’t like getting shots either.” Mac pointed at Cheese, walking along dragging a bigger stick. “Cheese doesn’t like shots either, you guys are twins!” and they laughed.

They turned down the road towards all their homes. Del’s came up first. “You all want to come in and have some cocoa?” Del asked pulling open their screen door. “Yeah!” Roe said, jumping up the couple of steps to the porch. Cheese already knew the drill at Del’s house, and left his stick next to the porch, as Mac wiped his feet quickly on a rug outside and everyone went inside the kitchen. “The packets are in the cupboard right there.” Del said, pointing above Mac’s head, as Cheese rushed in to a comfy spot in the sun, next to a chair. Del got out a kettle and filled it with water, putting it on the stove, and Mac got out the packets of cocoa. “Can I use this mug?” Roe asked, getting them all cups down from another cupboard, “it’s my favorite color.” He held up a teal one that Del had made in a pottery class they took one summer. “Sure! Get me that Garfield one”, Del said, and Mac, stood on tiptoe looking around for the one he liked: a sunglasses wearing smiley face that read, ‘You’re Doing Awesome!’, which he took down and put on the table.

Del took the flier, “I’m gonna call and ask about this while the kettle heats up.” Mac nodded, and got out some drawings he was working on from his bag. Roe looked over at them, “I like that one, is that a shark?”. “Yeah, it’s a shark that can fly though, it’s one that lives in the water in the clouds, but it’s not really a funny one.” Roe looked at the pictures. “Those are great clouds.” Del dialed the phone, with the long coiled cord hanging down to the floor. “Hello?” they said, “Is this the person who put up the flier about volunteers for the blood drive? I have some questions.” Some quiet chattering proceeded out of the other end of the phone and Del listened. “Umm-hm, ok, yeah, I would like to volunteer, but I wanted to know is it only for people who are certain ages?” More chattering. “Me and some friends were thinking about coming to hand out cookies and blankets and stuff, but we weren’t sure if we were old enough or had to bring those from home, or how that worked, we’ve never been to a blood drive.” The phone chattered again for a while and Del wrote some things down on a pad of paper next to the phone. “OK cool, thanks!” Del said, and hung up the phone. Roe looked up from the cloud drawings. “The person said that they have a permission slip at the community center we can come pick up to get signed since there’s going to be blood. Also, they have their own blankets and cookies, to hand out, so we don’t need to bring any from home.” “Mac sipped some more on his mug. “I kinda started to want to make some cookies anyway, we should make some after we go pick up those permission slips.”

Del’s eyes lit up. “Oh yeah! I forgot to show you!” They got down a recipe book they kept in a cupboard next to some other recipe books, with ideas, instructions, doodles, cut outs from packages, and lots of other recipes mixed up inside it. Del let it fall open, and turned a few pages, then stopped at a tab. “Here!” They said, slamming the book down in front of the other two, causing a sleeping Cheese to jump a little on the rug. “Check it out! My latest find!” Del pointed to a newspaper clipping detailing some very artfully cookie-cuttered homemade dog treats. “I have a whole section in here for Cheese snacks.” Del said. “It’s this green tab.” Mac pushed aside his shark momentarily, and read the recipe. “Wow, this is a lot of his favorites, he loves pumpkins and blueberries!” They all looked over at him, and he looked back, wagging at the attention. “Maybe we can make something like this when we go get the permission slip. We can stop by Gina’s and get some canned pumpkin. I have some quarters.” Del dug around in their pockets. “I have half a bowl of blueberries at home left from out back, we can grab when we come back.” Roe said. “I have cookie cutters, and we can see if there’s any of this other stuff in my cabinets in my kitchen.” Mac said.

They all finished up their cocoa, and wriggled back into their windbreakers, heading back out onto the porch, as Cheese darted outside between them. As Del stopped to tie their shoelace quickly before they headed back up to the community center, Mac took his notebook out of his pocket and wrote “get permission slips, get stuff to make Cheese snacks”, and slipped the notebook back in his jacket as they all jumped and ran down the road, racing eachother and the dog.

Notebooks and Boxes

Del, Roe, and Mac sat outside the convenience store holding a shoe box, while Cheese went back and forth nuzzling them for pats on the head, and running into the weeds chasing crickets. Del held a slightly crumpled and dented flier they had found taped to a light pole: “Rummage Sale, Saturday, 2pm, Community Center”. Roe had a small notebook, spiralbound at the top, that he had taken to carrying in his pocket with a pencil he won at the library for reading all the books in his favorite science fiction series. He got the notebook there too, and Mac had a matching one, because Roe had asked the librarian if reading your friends comics counted in the reading program where you could win prizes for reading a certain number of hours, or books. He had asked Mac first if Mac thought it counted, and overhearing, Del said they thought it kind of wouldn’t be fair, because then you could just make every book you ever wanted and read it, but Roe said, that’s just what’s at the library anyway, which made sence to Mac, so he said he thought they probably counted comics your friends made, and they all decided to ask. When the librarian said they did, in fact, count comics your friend made as part of the reading contest, and they totaled up all the things they had read, they each got their prizes for comic book reading: Roe got his notebook and pencil, Mac got a notebook and a small pack of gel pens, and Del got a pack of temporary tattoos that had UFOs on them and some reflective slap bracelets to wear playing outside in the evening. They currently were sporting a UFO on each arm.

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The Art Show

Del, Mac, Cheese, and Roe walked back from the recycling center in the soggy ditch next to the road. Each of them had a small pocket full of money from recycling cans. They had had an exciting trip, a new couple had moved into a trailer down the road from the recycling center, and were volunteering there when they arrived, their yard had been a source of fascination on the way, filled with bright recycled metal sculptures, and whirligigs, and murals and fences and boulders. When the man, Rye, told Mac and Roe that that was actually where he and Io lived, the Del jumped in with lots of questions about their art. Io smiled, “I’m sure you can make some just as wonderful. We taught ourselves how to make our art.”

As Del and Mac placed cans into the correct recycling containers, and Roe played with Cheese and a stick, the three discussed what kinds of things they could try making an art project with. “We should do something special for one of Mac’s zines, like a giant painting or something.” said Roe. Del nodded, maybe we could each make one of the pages something different and then bring them back together. Mac grinned happily, “I’ll choose one of my favorites! You all are great friends!”, and hugged Roe. “Lets surprise eachother and not show eachother the ones we work on until they’re finished!” Del said and they joined the hug with Cheese wiggling over too.

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Please Take One

Del pulled their bike up outside a bright pink and yellow trailer as Mac ran up behind with Cheese zig-zagging behind back and forth across the alley in search of interesting smells, but not wanting to get left behind by the two friends. Del leaned over the wooden porch railing and knocked on the edge of the screen door. A child’s round face appeared at the edge of the door. “Hey guy!” the child called, “some people are here! And I want some Kool Aid please!” The child walked off, as a voice approached, “go get me your sippy cup and I’ll get you some Kool Aid.” Roe’s face poked around the edge of the screen door. “Oh hey!” He said brightly. “What’s going on?” Del looked over at Cheese, not scratching a little under the stairs at something, and said “We’re heading to the library and wants to know if you all want to come with. I was gonna look for some books on my list.” Del held up a piece of scrap paper, “and Mac put up a flier last week inviting people to come join his writing group. It starts today and we’re going to get there early and find a good spot where people can find him.” Roe smiled big, “That’s cool you made fliers for your writing group! I have to get leave a note for my cousin and pack up some snacks and diapers, we’ll meet you there!” Roe turned back inside, “Hey Bennie, how does the library sound? Go find your shoes too and we’ll walk down there.” Del remounted their bike, riding in slow circles around Mac and Cheese as they headed down the alley and out to the street. From there Del rode in the street, with Mac and Cheese running a little behind on the shoulder to keep up. They came to the main road and instead turned down a path through a neighbor’s flooded pasture, the muddy stream and pond for horses and goats made a nice home for tall grass to ride through away from cars. Cheese ran off after smells, running this way and that way, and Mac jogged after Del’s slow riding bike, readjusting his backpack every so often, his composition notebook, erasers, pens, pocket dictionary and thesaurus bouncing inside against his back. They crested a hill behind a long building: the back of the library, and Del rode down fast, turning with a skid in front of the lock up for the bikes. They turned back to see Mac rolling down the hill giggling, with Cheese barking and chasing him down the hill. Mac stood up, and brushed the loose grass off. Del looked down and wiped their shoes off before they went towards the building together. They stopped in front of the bulletin board inside. Mac’s poster was still there and most of the slips at the bottom were torn off. “Hey that’s cool!” Del whispered, pointing to the missing slips. The poster said writing group would be starting in fifteen minutes, outside under the oak tree where there were benches, grass and shade. Mac looked a little nervous. “What if Cheese doesn’t like meeting so many new people at once?” Mac whispered to Del. Del shrugged. “You usually let him run around at parties even, and he’s always good, I bet he’ll be fine. I’m gonna go find my books and then I’ll come find you. Roe and Bennie should be over too in a while.” Del waved and walked inside and Mac and Cheese headed over to the shade by the oak.

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Riverworld: Island (a fanfiction from the Riverworld universe)

The river shone in the morning sun, little glints of silvery fish sparkling beneath the surface in the weedy water off the side of the steep drop off of a sand bar where some good sized rocks made for a good fishing spot. It was also a good swimming spot and in many summer days people could be seen lounging in the sand and jumping from the rocks to splash into the cool river below.

The island was large, in a part of the river that widen out into what some thought of as a long lake along it’s course. It was impossible to tell from this vantage point anything about the river, how remarkable or unremarkable it was. What about it drove people from their homes and loved ones in search of ephemeral and tantalizing truths about the meaning of existence, and what about it prompted some to stretch out like trees and put down deep roots, staying in place through whatever the river brought.

In this part of the river people didn’t mind having visitors pass through on their way to try and find the river’s start or end. They sometimes belonged to some church or spiritual group: The Church of the Second Chancers, the Neo Hari Krishna’s, Orthodox Resurrectionist Protestants, Rapturists, Reform Pagans, and lots more since here near the equator the weather tended to be very nice and in this section of river the current was also nice, and there were usually visitors of some kind of another during any particular lunar month. Often they were on their way to search for something or someone important. The source of the river and the fabled tower that was built there. None on the island knew what was in the tower or why some would search so long for it (some self reported searching upwards of twenty years for the tower at the planets’ pole). Others were searching for lost family who they hadn’t found since people had suddenly sprung into existence again on this Riverworld. People on the island were mostly those that has decided this turn of events, finding yourself alive in another place after thinking yourself dead, was strange and unprecedented and had decided to try and help eachother through the experience. No one on the island knew what caused it or claimed to know what caused it. Some had personal beliefs about it, some spoke with others about their thoughts, close friends, neighbors, talkative visitors, but some preferred to accept that it happened and focus on the goings on of still being alive and even thriving. Privately, some on the island happened occasionally to visit with who their nautical boat visitors called “Ethicals” or “Mysterious Strangers”, those that some claimed to have caused their sudden and mass relocation and resurrection. However, many of those on the island that had spoken with visitors of this nature found them to be just as pleasant, affable, and credible as any other visitors to the island and didn’t get too worked up about others’ labels of these passing folks, who often wore capes with hoods instead of simple magnetic fasten skirts and head wraps that many of the automatic item producing technology users wore. A few on the island had asked about the difference in clothing one autumn evening some years ago when having a roast vegetable dinner with a so-called “Mysterious” Stranger. The person had shrugged. “I guess I never really noticed” they said. The inquirer laughed, “some of the others who pass by here in boats say the one’s dressed like you observe the rest of us for some reason.” The caped figure laughed, and shrugged again. “Seems like you’re the one doing some observations. And maybe whoever you talked to as well.”

This was the island, a place that unlike both river banks did not have automatic item producing technology that enabled people to have access to things they may have had in a previous life: gum, stimulants, alcohol, premade clothing, etc. It was a bit more work out here, and when people had appeared around the automatic item producing technology on the river banks further down river, some of the families and friends on the island hadn’t yet known one another. Some had been surrounded by people of their same nationality or language group, some had been with people of their same gender or age, some had been with family, some had been with people from the same time period. As the days went on after everyone’s sudden appearance, many people began to have very different wants and needs, and large groups fractured into small groups. Not everyone wanted to stay in one place, some wanted to settle in the mountains or closer to the river, or dominate the item producing technology. Some were scared and couldn’t find people they connected with easily and began to use stimulants and alcohol heavily. Some felt compelled to seek answers about how people got there and set out to find answers, building boats, hiking, and forming like minded search groups and spiritual practices. Some didn’t really have an answer for what happened but didn’t feel the need to search the entire new planet, so little bit by little bit people chatted together, found people they clicked with, taught eachother skills, and kept moving to places they felt comfortable living within their capabilities. After a couple of years a small group living near a stream that fed into the river hadn’t been using the item producing technology for over a year, trying to help friends and family stay sober. They decided to take some of the boats they had built with a neighboring camp to have races and let them know the stream camp was going to give things a try at an island upstream a about two days. They talked with the camp and split the boats, taking half and leaving half. The neighbors had intermarried with another camp in the mountains and didn’t want to leave but promised to come check on the on the island. After many hugs and repacking and last jokes and goodbyes and splashes the stream camp set off and that was how the island was first settled years ago when some of the current adult inhabitants were children.

The north end was rocky cliffs with small caves, where dried fish and river vegetables like lotus, reeds, catails, and rice were left in grass baskets to dry and people came with tools they had made from stones to pound pigments from mud and rock of different shades and hues and then plaster it on the walls or themselves before celebratory dances when they had finished a lot of food preparation, weaving, or just felt like celebrating. There was an abundance and variety of edible aquatic vegetation in the many crags and corners and marshy holes of the island.

The mid part of the island was mostly grassy hills with a couple of springs that drained into the river, their mouths tidal and good for looking for clams and shell fish, their banks damp and often flooded and good for finding various roots and berries. Shells from the tidal flats were used to decorate people and homes around the island, or to make fish hooks and other tools with. In the grass different herbs grew: echinacea, chamomile, and mint. Edible flowers like calendula and nasturtium wound in vines and pockets between divets and dips in the landscape.

The southern part of the island was where the sandspit was found, with stacks of fish baskets in the elm and cherry trees on the shore waiting for someone to fill them, and little driftwood structures to lounge under along the sand, with rocks along the outside edge where people swam and fished. The inside edge of the spit was a place for bathers, laundry washers, toy boats and relaxing.

The east and west edges of the island were opposites. The west edge had the line of northern cliffs follow down with rocks and watery caves along the edge where people set eel traps from canoes or kayaks. After storms these caves were a good place to look for any boats, driftwood, or little detritus that had washed up, and some on the island had made some sturdy rope handrails down a couple of paths to hold when people went to gather firewood for bonfires to roast all the goodies people found to share at communal meals. The east side had a gentle shore to walk along, where people went to gather pretty shells in the sand, or gather sand and pebbles to grind against large stones to make beads. Across the water, the east shore of the river was actually the rocky shore, and it wasn’t often that boats came from that side, although they frequently saw wood smoke coming up, especially in the winter from the community over there on shore.

The west edge of the river was far away, but if approached by water, it was difficult to find the edge among marshy greens. Somewhere among the mangrove-like trees and cypress and reeds and river grasses, firm ground started up and from there the land gradually worked it’s way back into a gentle slope until it reached the foothills of steep mountains. The neighbors on the side had built communities around the mushroom-shaped item producing technology that delivered food, clothing, soap, cigarettes and alcohol once a day. Many of the people in that community went up for weeks at a time to the mountains to quarry rocks for building, or wood for building, using sleds and cordage to get everything back down safely. They were peaceful neighbors and sometimes they would play music together during vegetable harvests in the spring and summer or if there was a good wild mushroom or herb find; their community was even very generous in letting the Islanders have more saponin producing plants since the islanders didn’t use the automatic food and item producing technology that those on shore used, and made their own soap and clothes instead using nettle fiber, fish leather, and other things from their island.

Sylvia sat on the sandspit and watched the water flow past, gently closer to her, more quickly further out. She wore a simple tunic dyed purple and indigo with berries and leaves she had collected one summer. She currently had a pile of dry sticks she tossed one by one in the water and watched them swirl this way and that way in eddies. She used to pretend to her cousin you could tell little things that would happen by the way the current flowed but she didn’t really believe that and she stopped teasing him about it as they got older. She also had a stack of skipping stones she had collected but wasn’t ready to stand up and use yet. When she really gave it a try she could get quite a few skips out of a good skipping stone, six or seven usually, just a quick flick of the wrist. But today she felt lazy in the sun, and she took a sip from a small clay pot of water that she had etched with geometric patterns. She soaked her feet in the river.

Down the river on the horizon appeared what seemed like memories from another life, like little puffs of clouds sitting on the water moving steadily on. Sylvia’s friend Marsha stood in a grove of cherry trees, her fish leather sandals flashing in the sun. The salmon skin she had pieced together neatly and sewn and trimmed and lined so it was comfortable to walk in, was something she was proud of even if she didn’t openly brag about it. The work spoke for itself; the sandals were made two years ago. She stepped lightly over fallen branches and sand.

Marsha came over to Sylvia with a basket half filled with cherries, offering it. She noticed the little clouds downriver. “Guess it’s that time of summer.” She said nodding towards the white puffs. “Those river racers are coming up this way. We’ll see if they can make it around the island by nightfall.” Sylvia nodded. “Do they still have some candlefish lights up on the north cliff in case the racers need them? I like to watch when they get closer, so if there’s no lights I can go put some up there and come back to watch after.” Marsha craned to look on tiptoes, “Hmmm, seems like the wind isn’t as strong as the racers would like yet, there’s time for you to go check in about the candlefish lights and bring back some more water if you can when you come” Marsha said smiling “If you want to do all those things.” she added, her eyes smiling. Sylvia laughed, jumping up. “Sounds good to me!” and she trotted off towards some airy structures mid island where some people she knew kept their personal possessions, and in the summer heat stayed with their families, in the shade of the trees where the island had a good cross breeze. A friend she knew well often stayed there. “Hey Col!” she said waving when she got to where he was sitting with his friend Art, whom she knew but not as well as she knew Col. They looked up from a wood and shell musical instrument they had been working on, and waved back. “Hey Sylvia” Col said, “what’s going on today?” She offered the rest of the cherry basket to Col and Art, “I was wondering if you knew if we still have any candlefish lights up on the north cliff? I saw some racers downriver and I wanted to make sure we’re ready for when they use the island as a turn around point. Better to use lights than bandages.” Art nodded, “Good point.” He said, “I know last new moon they put a couple new baskets up there for people who wanted to go night swimming and fishing. That was only about ten days ago.” Sylvia nodded, smiling. “Thank you! I’m going to go double check, but if you want to go down and watch the racers with Marsha we had a good spot in the sand. I’ll bring some more water that way after I double check the lights.” Art pointed to a large clay pot, “We have plenty here too since you’re walking up north in the sun this morning. When we head down to see Marsha we’ll take some with some limes from the lime tree.” looked over at the lime tree, smallish, but having grown even bigger during the summer. It’s branches were bursting with little limes. Col, and maybe Art as well (Sylvia wasn’t sure how well he knew Col’s family) had grown the lime tree from the seeds that Col’s dad won when he got in his kayak and raced the downriver racers around the island. The racers used sails now but at least part of all their boats were still made from the boats they had all built together, and the lime tree would be a special treat for racing time. It had finally gotten big enough to give off fruit. “We’ll even bring some to share with the racers when they come ashore.” Col said. “That sounds great!” Sylvia replied, “I’ll pick some mint on the way back and we can have it with limes and fish. It’ll be a really fun evening watching the race! Better get up to the north side so I can see you when I get back!’ Sylvia called to them as she walked off down a grassy path.

Col and Art, meticulously gathered the tiny wooden pieces and shell parts and fish sinews and wrapped them back in fish leather and birch bark and put them in a home the two shared sometimes. Art picked up a large clay jug, and Col a flint knife. They walked over to the lime tree and filled the jug with fresh limes, then set out to find Marsha’s good spot in the shady sand near the trees. They bantered back and forth on the trail about what kind of fish they wanted for dinner, “Trout”, “Nah, catfish”, “no way, let’s get a bunch of crawdads!” Their food talk faded into the trees and down to the river, as they picked their footsteps carefully through fruit and shade trees to the sunny sandy shore where their friends would soon start to gather.